And the nearness of there---/Feels more near----/To here

Been doing pretty well. The stuff that I've been blogging about is in the past and I honestly can't remember it all that well. It's kind of... distant and dreamy. Even when I try to think about it, I don't remember it all that well and it doesn't cause any sort of emotional response. So that's... good.

Anyway. I found out I have some issues.... or actually, I researched some problems that I have, therefore verifying them as issues. Not-such-hot stuff. I've been dealing with it for years, though. And I have no way of getting it out of my system now, so I just have to keep living with it until... I have no clue. Until I break, or until I die, or until it eats me from the inside out... Or something. Gah, it's so complicated. I don't know how I manage to get myself into such ruts. Seriously. I suck.

I am so, so, so sick of myself.
Nothing new.

Oh yeah. I'm supposedly an INTJ, and I've been wasting time researching the intj personality type. And I came across this description, which made me laugh so hard! Or---more like the INTJ style-- grin wryly, at least. Erm, yeah. It's actually pretty accurate in how I represent myself...since I tend to not represent myself.

INTJ: loner, more interested in intellectual pursuits than relationships or family, not very altruistic, not very complimentary, would rather be friendless than jobless, observer, values solitude, perfectionist, detached, private, not much fun, hidden, skeptical, does not tend to like most people, socially uncomfortable, not physically affectionate, unhappy, does not talk about feelings, hard to impress, analytical, likes esoteric things, tends to be pessimistic, not spontaneous, prone to discontentment, guarded, does not think they are weird but others do, responsible, can be insensitive or ambivalent to the misfortunes of others, orderly, clean, organized, familiar with darkside, tends not to value organized religion, suspicious of others, can be lonely, rarely shows anger, punctual, finisher, prepared