Current and Upcoming

Hey everyone.
I feel really accomplished today. I signed up for an english class at the community college here. This will be my first time ever going to school. Ever. So it's kinda exciting for me.
I've been learning how to drive. I'm late, but that's okay. I'm getting it. It's not so scary anymore.
I might be going to India again this summer. With Teen Missions. I'm not sure if I'm up to going through the whole boot camp thing again. But it wasn't so much physically difficult as emotionally draining. And I think that was mainly due to the leadership. IDK. I'm praying about it. If I can raise the money, I'm gonna give it a go.
Aaand, I might go to college in Hungary next year. A missionary training school. I've never been to Europe before, (never had that much of a desire...) but I think that God's calling me to go. I would be doing a lot of missionary work throughout Europe during my year-long training. And I might even be going to Uganda (or some other place) through them.

Anyway. I got on some sarotonin (finally) and eventually pulled out of my depression. Praise God. Honestly, some days I didn't think I would make it.
God is so faithful. I don' have it all together. But I don't need to. He does. And yeah. It was so so hard. Sometimes I'm scared of falling back. I'm trying to lean 100% on God, 'cause I can't go through life by myself.

With all the plans coming up, I have stuff to look forward to and things to plan out. And I'm happier, because I feel as if I'm going somewhere in my life.

Oh yeah, I got my hair chopped short and layered. It's raddd. I've only had a couple of people think I was a boy. xP And I've had a lot of guys staring at me as I walk by, and I don't think it's 'cause I'm ugly, either. Bwaha. Weird. I had all these people tell me I looked so much older, and then the other day this old man asked me if I was 14. =// I was like, "Waaaahhh...?"
BUT! I can wash my hair in 30 seconds. If I go to boot-camp this summer, bucket-bathing will be a piece of cake (to be cliche.)

Still doing ambulance. Pretty cool. I'm proud of the stuff that I've dealt with, even if I don't feel as qualified as I would like to be. That one call that I blogged about before really prepared me. I mean, I've done CPR and I've seen someone die. I've been to car wrecks. Not many people in the USA get to experience that. Especially 17-year-olds. Maybe someday I'll transfer to another town so I can deal with a larger variaty of issues.

Still doing jujitsu! It's so awesome. I'm beating 300-pound guys more frequently these days. haha. Best feeling in the world. I'm not so claustrophobic when I'm being smashed to the ground. Learning how to control breathing, put up with a greater amount of pain, not letting adrenaline control me. No longer being called "Sonic the Hedgehog" so much. =D This week master made me flex my arm while he pointed out pressure points to the class, and how to grab muscles to cause pain for wrestling. "She's got big biceps for a wench, eh?" he asked. He asked for it. ;) I have bruising where his fingers grabbed my bicep. Nice, right? Can't wait to show it off to him. haha jk.

Been trying to do more artwork. I got a deviantart! It's awesome. Got me drawing again. http://cylinse.deviantart.com/


YEAH! So that's a little update on my life.
God bless you all.
He is faithful, even when we are faithless. He cannot deny Himself.