Currently in Hungary.
I'm really glad I'm here. I really want to seek God. I want Him. I want Him more than the air that I breathe. This thirst for God is so strong it's painful. But I can't feel Him. I can't grow, because of It.
And I need someone. I need someone. I need help. I know it will be agonizing. I know it will be a messy and traumatic mess. But it's stunting my growth. It's keeping me in bondage. It's a lid over a candle, and I can't breathe. Sometimes I feel like I'll explode. Like I'll have to fall on the floor and flail like a fish out of water. I'm afraid, when I walk by someone, that I reek of It. That just by looking at me they'll see. It's so strong, I can't hide. God, it haunts my dreams.
I'm so f-ing lonely, sometimes I think I can't live.
But there's gotta be a way out. There's got to be a flame in me somewhere. And if there is a spark, I know God will cup it in his hands and gently blow it into a flame with His mercy.
About Me
- Cylinse
- I was a hungry child, a dried up river. I was a burned out forest, And no one could do anything for me. But You put food in my body, water in my dry bed, and to my blackened branches, You brought the springtime green of a new life.~/ I'm 17-years-old, with dreams enough to fill the ocean, and faith enough to move mountains. I'm a sinner, saved by the grace of God, my Creator and my Lover. My art: http://cylinse.deviantart.com/
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